Sunday, February 28, 2021

Day 3 of The 100 Day Poetry Project

 Day 3 of The 100 Day Poetry Project.

This poem, Moments of Joy, was inspired by one of my students today and something they said on their Pandemic diary podcast assignment. "It's the little things that make us happy."

I want to know what brings you joy? What is one little thing that makes you happy? Be on the lookout for the little things that bring you moments of joy.

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Saturday, February 27, 2021

Day 2 of the 100 Days Poetry Project

Day 2 of the 100 Days Poetry Project

Who suffers from anxiety?  Me! I was totally feeling anxious and fidgeting and I literally have to move. I can't even meditate and sit still. I have to do walking meditations. 

This is an excerpt of my poem: Anxiety. I hope it resonates with those of you who are also dealing with it.

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Friday, February 26, 2021

Day 1 of The 100 Days Poetry Project

 Day 1 of The 100 Days Poetry Project

I started a creative poetry project on Jan 31st, 2021. I joined #the100dayproject on Instagram and decided to write one poem every day for 100 days and then create an image and put the poem out on Instagram aka "into the world" for all to read. I decided to also share it on my blog.

My first poem is Moon Walk. I'm sharing an excerpt of the first stanza of my first draft. 

I met a group of friends I haven't seen for months to join me for a walk outdoors under the light of the full moon. It was cold and it was glorious. Then some of us went to an ice bar and had dinner at a speakeasy. I loved every second of the moonwalk.

I hope you enjoy this poem. And next time there is a full moon- go out for a moonwalk. 

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Monday, February 8, 2021

Remembering Another Grandpa with a Poem

         Remembering Another Grandpa with a Poem


Today is my Grandpa, Harvey Spaulding's birthday. He has been the topic of many of my poems. I loved him so much and he lived two hours away from me in Wisconsin. He was an important person in my life and he taught me so much. He was a great storyteller and a comedian.

This is the two of us in the late 1980s. I'm wearing blue shorts with a bearskin rug wrapped around me. My grandpa loved to go hunting and this was the first bear he shot.

The poem The Right to Bear Arms was published in 2016 by The Fem online literary Magazine.

Here is the link to my published poem:  The Right to Bear Arms


The Right to Bear Arms by Laura Kozy Lanik


My grandpa taught me how to shoot a gun.

He took me raccoon hunting at night.  

and we baited the black bear in the daytime,

driving the back 80 dirt road in a rusty blue truck.

Our gun rack hung in the bathroom,

the bullets in the kitchen drawer.

The 8 point buck I shot on opening day,

trailed blood for a mile before I found him.


I rode the yellow bus to a private Catholic school in town,

sitting next to my seventh-grade crush, John.

On a crisp Fall day,

John found his father’s loaded rifle hiding

in back of the coat closet. He called his friend.

They met in the woods behind 7-Eleven, 

where his friend pointed the gun at him.

He pulled the trigger and 

John drowned when his lungs filled with blood.


I never went hunting again.

-Laura Kozy Lanik


It made my grandpa very sad that I never went hunting or shot a gun after John died.
This was a major turning point in my life. Thanks for reading.


Thursday, February 4, 2021

Remembering My Grandpa with a Poem

                                             Remembering My Grandpa today with a Poem


Today is my grandpa Max's birthday and while he died many years ago now, he is still an important piece of my heart and my life and I miss him.  This summer I wrote a poem about one of his experiences during World War II and it was published this Fall by Origami Press in their Best of Kindness Anthology 2020.  The poem, "A Silent Interaction" earned an honorable mention placing as one of the top 6 poems published out of 700 poems submitted. I'm so proud of this poem and so proud to be the granddaughter of Max J Kozy. I hope you enjoy the poem.


      A Silent Interaction by Laura Kozy Lanik


My grandpa told me about a man he met 

during World War II

a man who spoke a different language

who practiced a different religion

who lived in a concentration camp

until it was liberated by American soldiers.


My grandpa told me this man changed his life

and in these last 50 years 

not a day goes by that he doesn’t think about him

even though he never knew his name

he never forgot him.


My grandpa told me he started smoking 

when he enlisted in the Army Airforce

the day after Pearl Harbor was bombed.

He put his army-issued cigarettes 

in his shirt pocket and carried them everywhere.


My grandpa told me towards the end of the war

in April 1945 he walked through a

liberated concentration camp in Germany,

he couldn't remember which one,

Where he noticed an emaciated man 

lying on the cold, hard ground

too weak to get up and 

walk out of camp with the others. 

This man reached out his hand

and my grandfather gave him the cigarette

he was smoking.


My grandpa told me he helped the man

smoke the cigarette, 

he held it to his mouth

and he puffed once, then twice.

The man smiled and my grandpa smiled too,

His dull eyes lit up with a spark

before he passed from this world into the next.


My grandpa told me of the silent interaction

between two men at the end of the war 

and I never forgot this simple act of kindness and 

how it created a ripple that has lasted for generations.


-Laura Kozy Lanik







Thursday, April 2, 2020

Poem in my post: The First Three Stanzas of My Body by Laura Kozy Lanik

Poem in my post: My Body by Laura Kozy Lanik

Happy National Poetry Month to everyone!
Since most of us are working from home and I find myself with a little extra time because I am forced to stay home like everyone else, I am trying to write a poem a day this month. I want to share some of my poetry with you. I've been sharing most of my poetry on Instagram. You can follow me @booksnob24  I love to share my photography from my travels as well on Instagram.




This is the first stanza is my poem called My Body. When you are an abuse survivor, you have body issues. All my life I’ve struggled to love my body. 




This is the second stanza from my poem, My Body. Because of the repeated trauma of sexual abuse, I tend to deform my relationships. Abuse really messed me up and I have a really hard time trusting people. 






The third stanza from my poem, My Body.  It's amazing how much anger lies just beneath the surface of abuse survivors. I sometimes find myself feeling angry just because. I find that it is hard to laugh and that I am always serious.  I am always dealing with and healing from the serious shit that happened to me when I was a kid.


This poem and many others can be found in my book Upon Waking. 58 Voices Speaking Out From the Shadow of Abuse.

You can purchase the book here:  League of MN poets

All proceeds are donated to women's shelters. We receive no profits from the book. Help support survivors.

Thank you for reading!


Sunday, November 17, 2019

Poem in My Post: Handmade Rugs by Laura Kozy Lanik

Poem in My Post: Handmade Rugs by Laura Kozy Lanik

Hello, my friends,
One of my poems was made into a sign in Mankato, Minnesota. It is a part of the Mankato Poetry Walk and Ride. There are lots of beautiful poems on this walk or bike ride and mine was recently included. I've heard its actually located in a dog park and the whole world knows how much I love dogs so I'm thrilled that is where my poem currently lives. It will be a part of this installation for two years.

I love making rugs. I've made a few rag rugs and I mostly use torn bedsheets and I use a stitching technique called Nalbinding. The first rug I ever made is the one pictured below. And the first poem I've written about making rugs is featured here today.

Handmade Rugs
By Laura Kozy Lanik

Constructing a rug
out of love, memories,
old stained clothes
and torn sheets tangled in time, 
like broken promises.
Memories weave through
strips of cloth, knotted,
pulled from a junk drawer 
of insecurity and despair,
wrapped around weathered hands.
Made into a work of art 
so beautiful 
it’s used
to wipe your dirty shoes.


Saturday, October 12, 2019

It's a Woman's World: Surviving Sexual Abuse Through Poetry

It's a Woman's World: Surviving Sexual Abuse Through Poetry

Co-editing our poetry book, Upon Waking, 58 Voices Speaking Out From the Shadow of Abuse with Annette Gagliardi has been an amazing experience for me. I've learned so much, I've grown and healed and listened to the stories of many survivors who have been through trauma like me.

One of the best experiences for me was being on the talk show; It's a Woman's World.
I hope you all take the time to watch this and that you take a nugget or two and share it with the world to protect yourself and your children.

-Laura


 

Sunday, September 8, 2019

Best Books to Read When You Travel to Vietnam

Best Books to Read When You Travel to Vietnam

I was lucky enough to travel to Vietnam with 17 high school students and two teaching partners recently.  We traveled to Saigon (Ho Chi Minh City) from June 21st through the 23rd, 2019 as part of a larger trip to SE Asia. We also visited Cambodia and Thailand.  It was Amazing with a capital A.  

I absolutely loved Vietnam. It is beautiful and busy and bursting with energy and Saigon never sleeps. In June the weather is extremely hot with a humidity level of boiling.  My favorite place was probably our day on the Mekong river. It was so lovely.  I also really loved the Rickshaw ride through the city. It was crazy and probably dangerous but I loved it!  We ate authentic Pho and of course tried the Egg Coffee and both were so good. The food is so good!

When I travel I make it a practice to read a book or two about the people and places I'm visiting. Books help me learn so much about the history and culture of a particular place.

I've read two books on this list to prepare myself for Vietnam.
Catfish and Mandala
The Best We Could Do
Both books were so informative.
I own copies of the last two books on the list and plan to read them soon.  I hope this list is a good resource for you.


Catfish and Mandala: A Two-Wheeled Voyage Through the Landscape and Memory of Vietnam
by Andrew X. Pham  


Catfish and Mandala is the story of an American odyssey—a solo bicycle voyage around the Pacific Rim to Vietnam—made by a young Vietnamese-American man in pursuit of both his adopted homeland and his forsaken fatherland. 

Andrew X. Pham was born in Vietnam and raised in California. His father had been a POW of the Vietcong; his family came to America as "boat people." Following the suicide of his sister, Pham quit his job, sold all of his possessions, and embarked on a year-long bicycle journey that took him through the Mexican desert, around a thousand-mile loop from Narita to Kyoto in Japan; and, after five months and 2,357 miles, to Saigon, where he finds "nothing familiar in the bombed-out darkness." In Vietnam, he's taken for Japanese or Korean by his countrymen, except, of course, by his relatives, who doubt that as a Vietnamese he has the stamina to complete his journey ("Only Westerners can do it"); and in the United States he's considered anything but American. A vibrant, picaresque memoir written with narrative flair and an eye-opening sense of adventure, Catfish and Mandala is an unforgettable search for cultural identity-  Goodreads


I absolutely loved this book and I learned so much about Vietnam. I highly recommend it.

The Eaves of Heaven: A Life in Three Wars by Andrew X Pham


From the award-winning author of Catfish and Mandala comes a son's searing memoir of his Vietnamese father's experiences over the course of three wars. - Goodreads

I haven't read this one but I think I will since I loved Pham's first book Catfish and Mandala. We learned a little about his dad's experience during the Vietnam war and after in his first book.  You should read this if you are visiting Vietnam and want to learn more about the war from the Vietnamese point of view.  I'm definitely adding it to my To Be Read book pile.


The Best We Could Do: An Illustrated Memoir Paperback by Thi Bui

An intimate and poignant graphic novel portraying one family’s journey from war-torn Vietnam from debut author Thi Bui.

This beautifully illustrated and emotional story is an evocative memoir about the search for a better future and a longing for the past. Exploring the anguish of immigration and the lasting effects that displacement has on a child and her family, Bui documents the story of her family’s daring escape after the fall of South Vietnam in the 1970s, and the difficulties they faced building new lives for themselves.

At the heart of Bui’s story is a universal struggle: While adjusting to life as a first-time mother, she ultimately discovers what it means to be a parent—the endless sacrifices, the unnoticed gestures, and the depths of unspoken love. Despite how impossible it seems to take on the simultaneous roles of both parent and child, Bui pushes through. With haunting, poetic writing and breathtaking art, she examines the strength of family, the importance of identity, and the meaning of home.

In what Pulitzer Prize-winning novelist Viet Thanh Nguyen calls “a book to break your heart and heal it,” The Best We Could Do brings to life Thi Bui’s journey of understanding, and provides inspiration to all of those who search for a better future while longing for a simpler past.
 - Goodreads

I always read books about places I'm visiting as I like to learn about the history and culture of the people and places I'm going to meet and visit during my travels. This graphic novel is awesome. It is a biography of Thi Bui's family experience in Vietnam during the war and how they escaped South Vietnam on a boat. She also talks about their experience coming to America after the war and how they adjusted to life in the U.S. amid discrimination and dealing with the aftermath of the trauma they experienced. Thi Bui artwork is phenomenal and beautiful. I highly recommend this book.

Last Night I Dreamed of Peace: The Diary of Dang Thuy Tram



At the age of twenty-four, Dang Thuy Tram volunteered to serve as a doctor in a National Liberation Front (Viet Cong) battlefield hospital in the Quang Ngai Province. Two years later she was killed by American forces not far from where she worked. Written between 1968 and 1970, her diary speaks poignantly of her devotion to family and friends, the horrors of war, her yearning for her high school sweetheart, and her struggle to prove her loyalty to her country. At times raw, at times lyrical and youthfully sentimental, her voice transcends cultures to speak of her dignity and compassion and of her challenges in the face of the war’s ceaseless fury.

The American officer who discovered the diary soon after Dr. Tram’s death was under standing orders to destroy all documents without military value. As he was about to toss it into the flames, his Vietnamese translator said to him, “Don’t burn this one. . . . It has fire in it already.” Against regulations, the officer preserved the diary and kept it for thirty-five years. In the spring of 2005, a copy made its way to Dr. Tram’s elderly mother in Hanoi. The diary was soon published in Vietnam, causing a national sensation. Never before had there been such a vivid and personal account of the long ordeal that had consumed the nation’s previous generations.

Translated by Andrew X. Pham and with an introduction by Pulitzer Prize winner Frances FitzGerald, Last Night I Dreamed of Peace is an extraordinary document that narrates one woman’s personal and political struggles. Above all, it is a story of hope in the most dire of circumstances—told from the perspective of our historic enemy but universal in its power to celebrate and mourn the fragility of human life.
 - Goodreads

I read this book in 2012 and it offers the reader from the Western world a view of the war from the other side of the conflict.  While some parts of the book are maybe lost in translation, much of it will give you a new perspective.  Throughout the memoir, there is death and destruction. Dr. Tram faces death daily as people she loves are shot and captured and her patients die of incurable wounds. Her depression is evident as she misses her family and her high school sweetheart. Life happens during war and Thuy shows how she survives every day when bombs are dropping around her. Powerful. 


The Lotus Eaters by Tatjana Soli

In the final days of a falling Saigon, The Lotus Eaters unfolds the story of three remarkable photographers brought together under the impossible umbrella of war: Helen Adams, a once-naïve ingénue whose ambition conflicts with her desire over the course of the fighting; Linh, the mysterious Vietnamese man who loves her, but is torn between conflicting loyalties to his homeland and his heart; and Sam Darrow, a man addicted to the narcotic of violence, to his intoxicating affair with Helen and to the ever-increasing danger of his job. All three become transformed by the conflict they have risked everything to record.

In this much-heralded debut, Tatjana Soli creates a searing portrait of three souls trapped by their impossible passions, contrasting the wrenching horror of combat and the treachery of obsession with the redemptive power of love. - Goodreads

The Sympathizer by Viet Thanh Nguyen


It is April 1975, and Saigon is in chaos. At his villa, a general of the South Vietnamese army is drinking whiskey and, with the help of his trusted captain, drawing up a list of those who will be given passage aboard the last flights out of the country. The general and his compatriots start a new life in Los Angeles, unaware that one among their number, the captain, is secretly observing and reporting on the group to a higher-up in the Viet Cong. The Sympathizer is the story of this captain: a man brought up by an absent French father and a poor Vietnamese mother, a man who went to university in America, but returned to Vietnam to fight for the Communist cause. A gripping spy novel, an astute exploration of extreme politics, and a moving love story, The Sympathizer explores a life between two worlds and examines the legacy of the Vietnam War in literature, film, and the wars we fight today. -Goodreads

Winner of the Pulitzer Prize.




I'll leave you with two photos from my trip.


Downtown Saigon.
We were walking to find a delicious cup of Egg Coffee.
Of course, I walked down the middle of the street to get this shot and was dodging motorcycles but this side street wasn't too busy.

This was our last thing to do before heading to the airport.







A view of the Mekong River and our boat. We stopped at a shop to try coconut candy and Cobra snake infused rice wine.
I loved this day on the river.
I bought a lot of souvenirs here.















I hope you get to Vietnam someday even if it's just through a good book.

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Friday, April 5, 2019

Evicted by Matthew Desmond

Evicted: Poverty and Profit in the American City


This book is really good and it explains so much about Evictions and why they are happening at an alarming rate to our cities poor population. My brother and his girlfriend are being evicted in one month (they are evicting the whole building full of low-income residents who suffer from addiction and mental and physical disabilities to do repairs) He has lived there for over 10 years and has built a family with the other long term residents and they help and care for each other. His girlfriend has attempted suicide twice since learning of their eviction and potential homelessness and feels she needs to put down her cats since they won't be able to live on the street with her. It's heartbreaking. It's very difficult to find affordable housing in the Twin Cities area. Being evicted creates a lot of stress. Even I'm feeling the effects of the upcoming eviction and I'm not being evicted. It's so hard. This is an issue we need to create solutions for. As a teacher, I see some of my students struggling with eviction and homelessness and this changes their perceptions of worth. Read this book and educate yourself about this issue. It's so important to lower the rate of evictions in our cities, that it needs to happen NOW.

“Every condition exists,” Martin Luther King Jr. once wrote, “simply because someone profits by its existence. This economic exploitation is crystallized in the slum.” Exploitation. Now, there’s a word that has been scrubbed out of the poverty debate.”

“it is hard to argue that housing is not a fundamental human need. Decent, affordable housing should be a basic right for everybody in this country. The reason is simple: without stable shelter, everything else falls apart.”