Allen Eskens Guest Post + Giveaway
Allen Eskens is the Minnesota Author in the Spotlight here on BookSnob for the month of February and he recently visited the high school I teach at in Minneapolis to talk to students. He wrote his guest post about a question he didn't expect. Allen's book, The Life We Bury is taking South High School by storm. I see students and staff reading it everywhere. Read on.
A question I didn’t expect.
I recently did a presentation at Minneapolis South High
School and a young lady asked a question that caught me off guard. I’d given my
talk about how I came to write my novel The Life We Bury, and I was taking
questions when this bright young woman asked “If I could go back in time and
talk to myself and give myself advise, how old would I be. I’d come prepared to
answer questions about my writing process or what it’s like to publish a novel,
but this question was definitely one of those outside-the-box questions.
I didn’t have time to give that question the hours of
thought it deserved. I shot from the
cuff and said sixth grade. And now, after giving it some thought, I believe I
got it right.
I remember being a
fairly self-confident kid up until I got into sixth grade. I used to do the
readings at my church, walk fearlessly among my peers, and I even had a part in
the school play. But then sixth grade came along and something happened. I wish
I could tell you what that was, but I can’t. No crippling trauma. No loss of a
loved one. No single incident that would explain the change. I just
changed.
I developed a form of stage fright that shrunk my world. I
became unable to speak in front of people. I gaped like a freshly caught perch whenever
a teacher would call upon me to answer a question in class.
For the next three years I began a slow withdrawal from
life. I quit all of my extra-curricular activities. No more football, wrestling
or drama club. I became introverted and awkward. Looking back now, I see that my
slide was born of a complete loss of confidence. Doubt gripped me in every aspect of my life.
By the time I started high school, I had pledged that I would keep my head down
and do the very minimum necessary to graduate.
But then, on a dare, my best friend and I tried out for the
school play. I was terrified and expected that I’d freeze on stage. But to my
relief, I made it through—and had fun in the process. Over the next four years,
I threw myself into theater and by the time I graduated I was a completely
different person. I regained my self-confidence, and I’ve been grabbing life by
the throat ever since.
Back then, I came close to skidding down a very different
path in my life. But now I am a successful attorney with a novel that is a
finalist for the Edgar Allen Poe Award and a Minnesota Book Award. When I spoke
to the kids at South, I wanted tell them the things I wish I could have said to
my sixth-
grade self. Don’t let self-doubt be the deciding factor in what path
you take. Challenge yourselves and you’ll be surprised what you can accomplish.
Allen Eskens
Author of The Life We Bury
Thanks Allen. If you would like to win a copy of Allen's book, please enter here: The Life We Bury Giveaway